Home?

Week one of zoo camp is over and done with. It was really nice to be back at work and spend all week hanging out up at the zoo. I just fell right back into the swing of things and I felt at home again.

I have realized that for me, the feeling of home is more of a moment rather than one particular place. Certain things will create that nice "home" feeling for me. Sometimes it will be a person. Other times it is a certain moment at a place I love. Either way, I have found that home is relative for me. And I am becoming more unattached from my family. I guess that is what happens while you "grow up".

The trouble is, I am not sure how fast I really want to grow up. I didn't think it would come this quickly. I kept telling myself I would have more time to be a kid. And it seems like it just keeps coming and there is nothing I can do about it.

I am lonely. I am tired of feeling alone. No matter what I do, I can't fill that void. That hole is starting to eat away at me. I just need to get back to normal. Whatever that is.

It sucks when you can feel completely alone and be surrounded by people. A small fish in a big pond. I go unnoticed. I miss my friends. I just want them back. And I am tired of waiting.